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Day 2: My Journey Towards Finding Inner Peace

Yesterday, I found that I was fidgeting quite a bit. I may have fidgeted on day 1, I just did not notice. I was fidgeting because my neck was beginning to feel stiff from sitting in one position for an extended period of time. That broke my rhythm just as I was beginning to get used deep breathing and stillness. I tried to focus a lot on deep breathing, relaxing the individual muscles of my body one by one, starting from my face, as I tend to clench my teeth generally and stick my tongue on the roof of my mouth. I also noticed that my shoulders did not necessarily relax, they were slumped more than relaxed. All these areas I plan to work on tomorrow. On day 1, I thought about gurgling babies and that made me feel warm and happy as I tried to let go. So yesterday, I tried thinking about a waterfall shaded by beautiful thick forests as that is a happy place for me. At that point, I began to feel more relaxed. I did not get that floating sensation today, will try again tomorrow. I am generally an anxious person, so I need this to work, to settle me and calm me down. I got my anxiety from my mum, she is a worrier. There is nothing lovely, or interesting about worrying and anxiety. Yoga helps, but meditation I hear, really sorts it out. I am yet to connect with my centre, and I am willing myself to be patient. One day at a time.

During my two meditation sessions so far, I really enjoyed the feeling of making time for myself first and foremost. I also enjoyed how I felt afterwards. I feel that I am improving and getting closer to my quest with every new meditation experience, especially with the information available to me. While meditating yesterday, I wondered how to find my centre and what the centre actually is. Looking at the Meditation Insight video, I feel that it is basically a focus point at the centre of one’s body, the focus that causes you to first, think about solely IT, and subsequently about NOTHING, emptying your mind. It seems really tough, sounds simple, but quite tough to actually achieve. I will start with focusing on a peace circle, an imaginary object in my centre. When I meditated on day 1 and yesterday, I rushed into it. I now understand that I should have prepared myself for it, created a nice space, found the ideal sitting position, and possibly placed a pillow under myself to keep my shoulders straight. I am thankful for this video I found, and will be ready for tomorrow. Three key areas of focus for me: creating a nice environment for meditating, preparing my body for meditating, and focusing on my centre.

I had a discussion about the concept of Peace in+ Peace out = Sustainable peace with someone, and he thought it was much too simplistic. Hey it is simplicity that gives you peace, we have become so complex and sophisticated, that’s why the world has a kazillion problems. I do agree though, that inner peace will not be enough to create peace in society and the world. For sustainable peace in the world, the right combination is certainly important. Peace in for me means finding inner peace for myself, becoming more accommodating, listening better, understanding the meaning of stillness and using my words wisely. It would mean being selfless and taking the 5 self discipline points seriously. That way, I am creating an environment for the people I connect with to thrive and find their peace. It will mean raising children in an environment where they would be a beacon and light to their community. It would mean being part of a community that encourages peace and its benefits within my workplace, neighbourhood and/or family and friends, and the list goes on. That influence and extension of my inner peace, is what I regard as peace out and what could potentially bring about sustainable peace, if there are millions of people looking towards this same goal. A tree cannot make a forest, but we can start by planting those trees, one at a time.

Day 1: My Journey Towards Finding Inner Peace

I experienced meditation for the first time in my life yesterday. In the beginning, I was very keen to follow the voice guiding the process in the meditation Mp3 and the first thing I made sure to do was to find a comfortable sitting position as I was not sure how my body would feel after 35 minutes of sitting in the same position. I tried to empty my mind and think about nothing at all. It was difficult as different thoughts continued to run through my mind. I began to focus on different parts of my body, letting my jaw slack and the tongue fall from the roof of my mouth. When the voice on the mp3 asked that I let myself go, like an innocent baby, thoughts of babies came into my head. It was distracting but soothing. During those 35 minutes, my mind was not empty at all, different thoughts kept clouding it. I seemed to be reliving the previous day at some point. However, towards the end, when I began to take deep breaths, this calmed me and I felt like I was floating away. I felt at peace and calm afterwards. Tomorrow, I shall try deep breathing from the beginning.

source: google images
source: google images

I believe peace is possibly the best ingredient for a happy and fulfilled life, as one human being and as entities of a much larger community. I can certainly relate to the stories I hear everyday about stress and worry in people’s lives, anxiety over money and health problems. I understand the struggles which we go through, as individuals living our lives everyday and trying to have a balanced existence in the midst of so much stress. When I heard about Peace revolution, I wondered why two seemingly different words were placed side by side. But I can see why now, if people work hard towards finding peace within themselves, that inner peace will definitely “take over”, so to speak, and shine through while throwing a glow on the communities in which they live.

I am keen to find out the place of peace in finding happiness; I have often wondered if both are one and the same, or if one is dependent on the other. I look forward to learning more about peace, finding it within myself, and the after effects that it will bring in my life.

I enjoyed this process on my day 1. I will be honest and say that it has not answered all the questions that I have. What it has done is give me the desire to come back to explore it further and learn more. This is the first time I have tried to find inner peace through meditation. In the past, I have only explored calmness and peace through seminars, praying and yoga, and hobbies/recreation. While the merits of those cannot be understated, I have enjoyed this process of quieting my mind, of stillness. I found that it takes a great deal of focus and patience as my mind wandered a lot. I do like how I felt afterwards and I hope that in the next 41 days, it will become easier.

Towards Inner Peace: My 42 Day Meditation Journey

I woke up alone one morning recently; baby sister had gone to Dakar. I woke to the taste of metal on my tongue. You know that taste from unhappiness and fever. Which is surprising because I consider myself relatively happy and well. Except that another plane crashed the previous day; lifeless forms and metal wings scattered a few kilometres from the tarmac. So someone’s little girl, a brother, a sister, a grandfather, a coffin and a corpse, a death a second time. My body is already looking back in anger. But you have to put your best foot forward, so I put on some shorts and shoes, and began to run to my loud egwu ogene. It began in my right ear, and travelled to the rest of my being, the wind beneath my wings. But I ceased to hear it quickly, sadness is like the rain falling on a leaking roof.

For the rest of the week, I felt like I had lost something important. And we have actually, the whole country has. Plus everytime I turn on the news, I see body bags of those illegal immigrants sailing to Italy, who drowned so close to a dream that will never be; being removed from the water in Italy. The horror and sadness of it all. Is there no end to the world’s problems? There was a nagging, an anxiety that I could not shake. I did some yoga, said a prayer, and I slept fitfully at the weekend. But when she returned from Dakar, and spoke to me about her experience at the peace retreat she attended, I thought about exploring the concept of peace in peace out PIPO. I found this group which believes in meditation as a way towards finding inner peace, which then translates to outer peace. The outer peace then takes the world by storm and it spreads. I like the idea. If I am at peace with myself, obviously my colleagues will feel it, my family and friends will also feel it. Imagine that every individual in the world finds peace?

I don’t know. It is fascinating, and I am ready to embark upon a 42 day journey towards finding inner peace and a better me through meditation and self discipline. According to the PIPO folks, meditation involves opening one’s mind, emptying it, and finding your centre while the self discipline really refers to respect for life of People and living beings, respect For the property of others, no sexual misconduct, no false or hurtful speech and finally, no use of intoxicants of any form. I live in the tropics, we have mosquitoes here, so I may have a problem with slapping them away. Also, I like to have a glass of wine when am out with friends, what can I say? I eat meat too!

It all sounds very Buddhist. I shall put up a post of how each day went, the morning after. The beauty of this journey is that it does not necessarily interfer with one’s belief system and it is all at your pace using videos or audios which guide you. Anyway, one day at a time. This is the start of my journey and I would like to share it.