I woke up alone one morning recently; baby sister had gone to Dakar. I woke to the taste of metal on my tongue. You know that taste from unhappiness and fever. Which is surprising because I consider myself relatively happy and well. Except that another plane crashed the previous day; lifeless forms and metal wings scattered a few kilometres from the tarmac. So someone’s little girl, a brother, a sister, a grandfather, a coffin and a corpse, a death a second time. My body is already looking back in anger. But you have to put your best foot forward, so I put on some shorts and shoes, and began to run to my loud egwu ogene. It began in my right ear, and travelled to the rest of my being, the wind beneath my wings. But I ceased to hear it quickly, sadness is like the rain falling on a leaking roof.
For the rest of the week, I felt like I had lost something important. And we have actually, the whole country has. Plus everytime I turn on the news, I see body bags of those illegal immigrants sailing to Italy, who drowned so close to a dream that will never be; being removed from the water in Italy. The horror and sadness of it all. Is there no end to the world’s problems? There was a nagging, an anxiety that I could not shake. I did some yoga, said a prayer, and I slept fitfully at the weekend. But when she returned from Dakar, and spoke to me about her experience at the peace retreat she attended, I thought about exploring the concept of peace in peace out PIPO. I found this group which believes in meditation as a way towards finding inner peace, which then translates to outer peace. The outer peace then takes the world by storm and it spreads. I like the idea. If I am at peace with myself, obviously my colleagues will feel it, my family and friends will also feel it. Imagine that every individual in the world finds peace?
I don’t know. It is fascinating, and I am ready to embark upon a 42 day journey towards finding inner peace and a better me through meditation and self discipline. According to the PIPO folks, meditation involves opening one’s mind, emptying it, and finding your centre while the self discipline really refers to respect for life of People and living beings, respect For the property of others, no sexual misconduct, no false or hurtful speech and finally, no use of intoxicants of any form. I live in the tropics, we have mosquitoes here, so I may have a problem with slapping them away. Also, I like to have a glass of wine when am out with friends, what can I say? I eat meat too!
It all sounds very Buddhist. I shall put up a post of how each day went, the morning after. The beauty of this journey is that it does not necessarily interfer with one’s belief system and it is all at your pace using videos or audios which guide you. Anyway, one day at a time. This is the start of my journey and I would like to share it.